&& we're never gonna survive
unless we get a little crazy.
D'elle.

i live by my own little fairytale in my head, which oddly enough, keeps me grounded. i don't break the rules, but i do bend them every so often. i'm a trainwreck just waiting to happen. ♥


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Friday, 6 November 2009, 7:33 PM
Stay With Me, Jack.





It makes me cry everytime :')

feera.





1:30 PM
First You Must Learn To Smile While You Kill.

So I'm in the SA office with the guys while waiting for my next two meetings. Just came back from an introductory meeting with the management, and I am exhausted. I've been stretched too far this week with everything. All I wanna do is curl up in bed and sleep for days. I knew this would happen when I took on this job, but I didn't realise it would happen so soon. It's worse now that I've gotta rush events and assignments all at the same time since its nearing the end of the semester. Hopefully now that I've got my teams sorted out that everything'll get a bit easier.



Can't wait to take off for Christmas! (:










P.S.// my movie/tv series idea's coming to life! cant wait to get that one settled.







feera.





Sunday, 1 November 2009, 9:27 PM
Please Just Don't Play With Me, My Paper Heart Will Bleed.

Just came home from Secret Recipe to satisfy my random craving for cake. It doesn't help when the closest outlet is only a mere 3 minutes away. Now I'm sitting in front of my lappie happily devouring my chocolate mud cake like the beast that I am.


Anyway, here's an update. Went to my fourth concert of the year, whoo! :D Spent 6hours under the scorching Saturday afternoon sun just so I could see The All American Rejects upclose. The wait was unusually fun, with lots of laughter, singing and dancing to all the songs that they were playing before the concert. I wish they hadn't repeated Move Along so many times - as much as I love the song, it got a little annoying. It started to rain a little during the opening acts, and there was a frustratingly long delay in between, but despite it all, AAR did not disappoint. They were incredible, as always (;




















The crazy people that I went with (:
Love you guys!



More on Facebook of course. Picture quality's not as good as Worldstage due to really bad lighting, but they're good enough to remind me of how fcking awesome that night was. Was completely knackered by midnight, but I managed to down a couplve bottles of water to sooth my parched throat before I hit the sack. 5hours in the concert ground with no food and water is never good for the body. Some of my toes were still numb when I woke up this morning from all the jumping.

Now that I've rested well, it's back to work for me.



& I'm running out of time.









feera.





Friday, 30 October 2009, 11:27 PM
I Wish You Were Here.

I miss you.









feera.





5:45 PM
Do You Know What It Feels Like, Being Alone?

Currently in the Tiscra being bored and Facebook-ing. I admit, I'm addicted. Pft, who isn't? Just had my first meeting with my future SA Ents team, and I think it went pretty well. Now I'm just hanging here while waiting for my ride home. It's been a good five months since I last hung here on my own so it's nice to do it again, especially when there's only a handful of people around me - it doesn't feel as if my privacy is being violated as much.

Shit, it's frekkin cold & I'm wearing a skirt. Damn good move, Fie D: Sigh, I wish I'd brought my shawl today.

Brrr.





P.S.// Zomfg! AAR is hereeee!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥







feera.





Tuesday, 27 October 2009, 5:58 PM
I'm Fine.

Today was good. Got to campus & had lunch with the girls by the lake. A little bit of sunshine always helps when I'm down in the dumps. Double fresh orange juice does wonders for the soul too. Yum. Btw, only Notts kids would know why (:

Had a long, sleepy, three-hour QM lecture today since we won't be having any for the next two weeks. Ms. Ramos will be away livin' it up in Puerto Rico, at a conference of course. Dayumn. Now I don't feel like going for the E&B lectures if it's only gonna be a one-hour class on Tuesdays. I want my free Tuesdays!









Pictures courtesy of MySpace.com



I am a little obsessed with Hok ;P

Nothing like a little eye candy to get me through the day. Haha. Man, I wish Quest Crew would come down to KL and have a workshop. I'd do anything to go for that.


Anyhoo, gonna get started on my assignments. Loves.












feera.





Monday, 26 October 2009, 9:16 PM
Sometimes I Hope I Was Not Too Late.

Lounging on my sofa after a long and tiring Monday (it's called Monday Blues for a reason), I can't help but contemplate about where my life is heading. Come to think of it, I don't really know what I'm doing the things I do for. There's no purpose. It's all just because I think I can. I'm pushing my boundaries & forcing myself out of my comfort zone for no reason at all at this point, other than the fact that most 'successful' people say that's what should be done. I've been to countless motivational talks and seminars - to the point where I know exactly what the speaker will be covering even before he introduces himself - and it's the same thing over & over again. I hate it when people ask me where do I think I'll be ten years from now because I have absolutely no answer for that. My thoughts change. My outlooks change. So even if I do give you an answer, it'll be different sooner or later.



& another thing, just because I'm not acting the way I normally do, doesn't mean there's anything wrong with me. I'm perfectly fine. I just choose to drop the whole 'my life is perfect' facade, whether you like it or not. This is the part where I'm supposed to say I'm sorry, but I'm not. I have no reason to be. As crucial as it is, I'm sick and tired of having to don this mask for everyone to see - what you know about me is only a fraction of who I am as a whole. Only a handful of people have seen me for who I am, not for who I portray myself as. They've stuck with me through it all despite the bullshit I've put them through. So if one day you see me and I'm acting all 'weird', walk away if you can't deal with it. Because I don't want your comments, I don't want your opinions, & I especially don't want your advice. Whether I'm right or wrong, I just want you to listen. That's all.




And as sad as it sounds, the mask will be back on in the morning. Because as much as we'd like to deny it, we'll never show anyone our true selves. We're all actors, and pretty darn good ones at that.




The wheel is turning.












feera.





Sunday, 25 October 2009, 3:45 PM
Love Lockdown.

Oh snap.





Quest Crew is love. Loooooooooooove! Look at 'em wave, cut & thread! Dayumn.

& Hok is fcking hot (;








feera.





1:28 AM
Oh Blue Sands.

It's funny how just a little over a month ago I was complaining about being so completely bored out of my mind I could just die.

Just look at me now.





Oh boy.








feera.





12:08 AM
You're Still Apart Of Everything I Do.

Pretty stoked at how everything's going so far. First off, campaigning was hella fun, what with going around to random people at the SA putting beads and feathered boas around their necks, practically squealing at them to vote for me and shoving my flyers down their throats. Second was actually getting the results on Thursday evening, which got me so worked up I could have gotten a panic attack right there and then. And now, my mum's back from her two-week stint in the Middle East, and I've got Kimora Lee Simmons' book on Fabulosity cradled dearly in my arms.

Sweet.

♥













A couplve snapshots I took while making the necklaces. All those are gone now ): I'm pretty sure they're just hanging around in people's dorms looking pretty, as they should be.




Omg la now everyone's asking me for nice tables at Annual Dinner :\

I just got elected okay! Chill!










feera.





Friday, 23 October 2009, 11:16 AM
Steady Feet Don't Fail Me Now.

Finally the race has ended. & I am grateful. Thank you to everyone who has supported me, voted for me and helped me out through my campaign. I promise that I will not let you down.





Say hello to your new SA Entertainments Officer (:


How did I celebrate my win? By sleeping. I slept in today, 'cause it's the only time in the next year I'll be able to get proper, uninterrupted sleep. Work starts ASAP, with my training later in the evening, a meeting with the management tomorrow and recruiting my team this weekend. This is going to be one hell of a year for me. Fingers crossed I'll pull through.

















feera.





Friday, 16 October 2009, 6:55 PM
Have You Seen My Feathers?

So. Tired.

So so soooooo fucking tired.

Spent the day running around putting up posters all over campus, making flyers, glitter-fying my manifestos and going through campaign strategies. My butt hurt like a bitch once I got home, God knows why. Gonna head out early to Central Market tomorrow to get more materials and shit for the campaign. For those of you who don't already know, I'm running in next week's election to become SA Entertainments Officer (:

Notts, watch out. You ain't seen nothing yet. Vote for me!








feera.





Sunday, 11 October 2009, 12:01 AM
Tonight, Not Again.

The works of Jason Mraz are such lovely accompaniments to an otherwise quiet Saturday night. The melancholy melodies of Plane, the sensual upbeat tunes of Butterfly and the soft murmurs in Hey Love fill my room in a refreshing blend of sound that is so unnervingly calming. They're perfect for a day of lazing around in bed, in a room swathed in the cool, grey light of a rainy afternoon. His voice - that rich, soothing, cooing voice - and the way he so delicately enunciates every word always makes my lips curl upward into a small smile. I love how I can just curl up under the covers and leave it playing in the background, only to have him lull me to sleep. It's a fitting end to my somewhat lazy day.






feera.





Friday, 9 October 2009, 4:20 PM
I Hope Your Conscience Eats You & You Can't Breathe Without Me.

Drove out alone for the first time today. Where was I going? To Subang to pick up the All American Rejects tickets. Spent two hours in hellish traffic (I had completely forgotten about lunch hour and Friday prayers) to get to ss15, but having those tickets in my hand after all that was just so worth it. The things I do for two pieces of paper.







AAR, I'm coming ♥


On a brighter note, I got to spend my Thursday with the girls, pampering ourselves silly with manicures, pedicures, shoe shopping and pavlova at Alexis. Got myself my first ever French manicure, which I've yet to get used to. I hardly paint my nails, so right now they feel a little foreign on my fingers. I'm so glad we went out when we did, because next week onwards it'll be a rush of tutorials, assignments, presentations and meetings - basically things that make uni... well, uni.


Thank God for long weekends (:











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